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Name: Marliana Yusoff
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Nov 2009
01: Bday Aishwarya
02: Bday Shah Rukh Khan
03: VST's 6 Months Anni
05: Bday Jodo @SF
07: 1 Year @DD
08: Bday Jae @VST
17: 4 Year Arwah Atuk
17: Bday Sendoq
17: Bday Fiza Haengbok
30: Bday Lisa Norman

OCT 2009
02: IIUM Raya Celebration
03: (T___T) chazzie
03: Asra's Engagement Day
03: AGM IAC
04: Cultural Family Day
04: (T___T) fixa
07: Bday Toma Ikuta
08: Bday Rashid
10: Open House
10: AGM CLMG
11: Bday Emy
10-12: IIUM Convo
13: Angklung's Performance
17: Open House
18: Open House
20: Bday Gaki-san
21: Bday Wahida
28: 41st Single Momosu!
30: Bday Cousin Mail

Mood: Normal
Listening: Wonder Girls - Bad Boy
Watching: Monkeys @ Kyros
Reading: AllKpop Site
Eating: -
Drinking: Kickapoo

Uuu....susah giler skang nak update, apatah lagi nak online. Hari ni selamat menghantar emel kat semua yang terlibat, ngehehe. Terlibat ape? Ala, bese la...budak2 yang request kat Dorkistic. Hmm, kira OK la ni...sebab ada 3 aje permintaan. Satu tu nak blogger layout (emo je tema bebudak sekarang...huhu, tapi yang ni sangat menakutkan. Gambar xleh blah huhu), satu lagi nak wallpaper (MBLAQ & BEAST --> Hancus Na buat...sebab lamer x buat wallies ni), dan last skali B-sets untuk forum dia (Avi Minho & Siggy Suju+Shinee)

Lepas tu emel Jae nak bagi hadiah sempena derang nye laman sesawang tu, dah masuk 6 bulan. Pahtu habis dah seme keje orang len tu....dapat lak budak emo tu nak link button. Suker betul budak2 ni kalau dah mintak tu, tak reti mintak sekali harung. Huhu~ Seb bek tu je.

Pahtu, dah selamat dapat bukak Blogger (sebab dari hari tu xleh nak masuk), maka Na pergi la kemaskini blog Dorkistic sebab hari ni giliran Na untuk masukkan ikon2 sempena ICON CHALLENGE ngehehe~

Haa...ni la dia. Skang dah ada 66 ikon. Lepas ni, nak tukar layout Dorkistic Nana lak. BERTUKAR~!!! Hehe, itu layout kedua Na (guna coding sendiri) dan akhirnya bertemakan kumpulan K-Pop kegemaran Na: WONDER GIRLS. Lame lagi nampaknya derang nye aktiviti promosi kat US tu. Sebab baru2 ni derang ada kuar album (untuk pasaran di US sahaja) Nobody Remix yang memang remix. Bukan yang Rainstorm Remix itu huhu~ Rindunye kat derang, tapi Na rasa....derang tu lagi rindu nak balik Korea lebih2 lagi si SoHee tu. Tengok muka pun tau dia macam homesick...huhu.

Hmm~ Papepun, dah masuk bulan November ni. Tu, situ tu. Bahagian kalendar. Sila abaikan "kepengabaian" oleh tuannya. Sangat takde masa nak update bahagian tu, campur lak...tatau ape nak letak. Dan juga malas sedikit disebabkan arus Internet yang macam, hmm...bukan macam...MEMANG HAMPEH.

Adui...kaki kebas sudah.

Hmm..Minggu ni dapat berita yang Cikgu satu keluarga masuk spital sebab kena Denggi. Huhu~ Last jumpa Cikgu masa Cultural Village Appreciation Night tu. Tup2 derang masuk spital. Ni lak tadi, Chazzie kate si Jonghyun SHINEE kena H1N1 lak. Apsal ek? Kat Korea skang tengah musim H1N1 kah...? Hmmm...papepun, harap seme2 sembuh dengan cepatnya. Wahida pun dengar katanya demam. Na takde kredit nak mesej seme orang yang Na nak mesej. Ekonomi, kewangan Na sekarang sangat meleset. Haha.

Hmmm~

Ok-lah. Na nak setelkan hal lain. Jumpa lagi dalam masa terdekat, insya-Allah~

Oh, tak lupa jugak : "TO ALL FRIENDS, ALL THE BEST IN YOUR FINAL EXAMS!!!!" Good luck! Moga berjaya dan tak perlu nak kena ulang subjek huhu. Ganbatte neh!! Ja ne~

Mood: Weak
Listening: -
Watching: Ajez.psd @ Photoshop
Reading: My Abandoned Blog Haha
Eating: Kuew Tiaw Kung Fu @ HS Cafe
Drinking: Teh O Suam

Hmmm~ I think that I have not updated my blog for quite a while...right...? It seems so. Hmm~ Maybe because I was too focus, editing my Dorkistic's layout. It (still) doesn't go well as I planned. And since the Internet is so damn slow (news from friends said that the Internet is slow due to our economic crisis, sthg like that....huhuhu~) and I could not edit it well. But Chazzie said it's already ok. Yet....I am still not satisfied. I am so damn perfectionist eh? Huhu~ Nope, I don't think so....am I? (o_O)

Anyway, I think it's been a very very very long time...I last updated about my activities. Hmm.. I was thinking. Is it, maybe... Maybe I didn't want to update because people seems to think that I am always happy, with no worries and everything because of few events or programmes I joined here and there. Well, to them....it might be that all excitements and happiness, but nope. Well, I am happy with all those programs and events but for me (and my friends), it's a normal thing to do. I think. Well, we are musicians, we are from cultural-based societies, what do you guys expect eh..? Hmmm~ Weird......

What am I trying to say is that, behind all those happiness....you might not know that some of us might have been troubled or in sadness. Because of that, they acted the way they do. Do some "crazy" things which are actually not that crazy, etc etc. And maybe because of that, I tend to write more sad, angry posts. Aigoo~ I don't really know how to explain my points (T___T)

I think that I think too much of what people say about me. Well, actually I don't really mind. But I just don't like people talk about me. So, what's the difference when I myself tell all these things here online, in my blog? Right.... Hmm~ Here, almost all posts...show how random I am. I might forget what I have wondered and all, or might not. And I don't think I am the only one feeling like this, you readers might feel the same way too. Except that....maybe I am more stupid than other bloggers (^^;;) It's just that, people took you for granted when you do say serious things about yourself, but took some small mindless things you do as something serious. And say things as if they knew you better but actually they don't. Weird....

I am typing these because of my randomness, again. I don't know if I should ask you to ignore what I have posted or not. Just that, I asked you....please do not talk about me OR say things on my behalf as if you knew me better (not including Apple & Atun ATM since I considered them as a very MOST matured & understanding people I've ever known...), and if anyone ask about me....just say "please ask her yourself" hahaha.

Susah jadi orang "terkenal" dan popular ni....hahaha *sigh*

Random, too random....and too confusing. My posts.

I will update more confusing posts when I have time. Cya~

I am sorry that I haven't update anything last week. Too busy with nothing. Is it nothing. It is something but I'm a little bit busy. The Internet still so far away from my "village" hehe. Make me less online than always.

I am sorry for making you guys feel bad reading my posts.

I am sorry for always saying sorry to you guys. Shin said, it is not good to say "Sorry" so many times.. I'll follow his advice. Is it a good advice? I think he might be right...... (^_^)v See you later....... Might be a week later huhuhu. Bye!

Mood: Calmer
Listening: Vroom, Whooosh, Bla Bla Bla~
Watching: The notification that kept showing connected & disconnected (-_-;)
Reading: -
Eating: Watermelon
Drinking: Drinking Water



Yes, I changed my layout people..

Theme?
SADNESStearscryRAIN and of course Takahashi Ai~

Actually I wanna put Toma but I'm in a very depressed-yet-still-able-to-not-kill-anyone-yet. So, hmmm....

I create my own layout with my own coding but since it really did not turn out well and still need a lot of repairing here and there, I gave up....now. I might look into it later.

Hmmm~

As you can see, I've posted lots of emotional, moody posts. Yes. I feel like I wanna apologize to my blog visitors but I've been asking myself again...WHY SHOULD I EH? Hmm~ I am mad, I am angry but I did not mention any names (haha, narf!!! sometimes~) and I still tolerate with all hateful things people did to me....and I am supposed to be guilty because I spit fires in my blog? My personal blog?

Life is funny, as I mentioned to my dearest today.

This person, is one of my closest dearests whom I can really let out some words that left unheard by others. Apa yang Na merepek? Hmm~ Well, at least....I have a punching bag when I cannot hold my anger anymore....huhu. Sorry dear..

I was deeply hurt by friends' simple remarks last weekend. I thought I could handle it well since...it is NOT A BIG ISSUE FOR THEM, and they see it as a joke. Fine. I am not great and almighty like my friends....but who gave you guys the right to say things like that in front of my other friends...? As far as I remember, I NEVER DID THAT TO YOU~!!

Three days I've been thinking..of what reaction should I pose.. Last night, I cried. Suddenly. Really don't know why... Maybe because too may simple reasons that I saw...lead to this madness. It makes me remember again, why I don't wanna be on top etc.

I observed that people with good intellect tends to be snobbish, sometimes. Those who have really pure hearts might not be like that...eh? Because, I am not only talking about you...but also myself. I know I tend to be very mad or very sarcastic when someone makes a very obvious mistake, or mistakes while doing their works.

. . . I really am not speechless to comment more about this but I have LOTS to say and I don't think I can finish typing until I find solution to end this..this misery...

Anyway, as I said to my dear... I am waiting for the death of my heart, eaten by all these bloodsuckers..... My heart was already broken, plastered here and there. Still couldn't bear the broken piece. And the suckers kept sucking until I cannot breathe. While waiting for the heart to stop, I have to keep up my smiles, cure my own pain, and act nothing happens after all those words that they think "it's funny ha ha ha!" and listen to their heartache. Because they're the only with feelings, they are the only one who can feel sad and I don't feel nothing. Nothing at all...